dream_intruder

08:56 am: Hi Jen
Okay, it has been forever since I have posted. I'm sorry. Things have been quite crazy around here. QUITE!!! Well, I am 30!!! omg, WTF! Where did all the time go? It's like, "Shit! I'm getting old!" LOL It so totally sucks.

My Birthday was awesome, though! Friday was a regular day. Chris bought me a dozen pink and white roses, some chocolates, and had let me go clothes shopping the week before. Dad and Kathey bought me this huge jewelry case, Mikaela gave me a free back-scratch coupon (one of my best presents!), and Chris' mom and dad sent me $50. Well, all week Chris had been sneaking around with my cell phone and I knew he had to be up to something. I just didn't know what. He kept text messaging my friends and pulling the Girl Scout Moms out of the meeting individually. Then he tells me we have dinner plans for Saturday night and not to make any plans. OKAY!! Something is on for Saturday, take mental note. LOL

Saturday night, I get all decked out and we go to my favorite restaurant, El Altenos. We pull up and a few of my friends are standing out front with this huge ass, HEAVY, sombraro. I'm giggling like crazy and as red as a beet. They put this on my head and march me through this place where all these strangers are eating, and take me to the back where over thirty friends and family are sitting there waiting on me! It was awesome! There were black balloons everywhere and a few big helium ones that exclaimed I was over the hill. I felt foolish but loved! I made over $100 in birthday money and got some awesome gifts and gift cards. It was so much fun! It was so great!!! I can't beleive they did that for me.

THEN, the next suprise was I got kidnapped. Chris offered to take all the ladies kids home with him for the night (he wound up with 11), and we all got to go out dancing. It was so much fun. I didn't get wasted. I actually drove all of us to the Waffle House at 3:30 in the morning! (You should have seen that durango. We had it packed to the hilt! After that, I was so tired someone else drove us the rest of the way home.

Anyway, getting old sucks. But the birthday was awesome. Hell, it had been a really long time since anyone had given me a party.

School is tough! I'm taking 18 hours and OMG, it is so damn frustrating. I just can't get done with homework and studying. Once I get caught up the next round is due. It just seems like it goes on forever and ever. I'm doing my best to hang in there. I've just got to give it my all.

I've been chatting with Chris D. for the past several months. He is doing okay. He is living in Riverdale and trying to get into West Georgia this fall. I hope he can. He really needs to get out, make friends, and find happiness. He misses hanging out with us!

Things on the homefront are going well. Mikaela is doing pretty good in school this year. Austin on the other hand is failing miserably. He is going to have to repeat 1st grade. Sucks, but he just isn't accomplishing the basic stuff. He had an early birthday, though. We really should have made him wait an extra year! So repeating will actually help him. I hate he has to make all new friends. He is so shy! But he is in Cub Scouts this year and starts baseball in march. So hopefully, he will gain some self-esteem and assurance. Chirs and I are doing great. As always! LOL We are still our crazy, wild, loving, out-going selves. ~winking~ Jen, you, rob, and the girls need to hook up with us for a weekend. Helen sounds great! Chris and the kids have never been there! We need to do a weekend trip in tents or something! I don't know if you are willing to sleep in a tent or not. But we can figure out something. Maybe split a room or cabin. Anyway, give it some thought. I would love to take the kids there.

Well, back to the books for me. Just wanted to catch you up on my life. I think you are the absolute only ones that reads this thing. LOL I love ya, gal! HUGS

Love, me

05:08 pm: so sad
Check out this site!

http://www.cnn.com/2005/SHOWBIZ/books/11/07/books.anne.rice.ap/index.html

I'm so drepressed. I love Christ! Don't get me wrong! But Oh, how i loved my novels, from Anne Rice, too!!!!!!!!!!

Pouting!

Juanita

09:19 pm: Funny
I Am A Princess
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>An airline's passenger cabin was being served by an obviously gay flight attendant, who seemed to put everyone in a good mood as he served them food and drinks.
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>As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down the aisle and announced to the passengers, "Captain Marvey has asked me to announce that he'll be landing the big scary plane shortly, so lovely people, if you could just put your trays up, that would be super."
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>On his trip back up the aisle, he noticed a well-dressed rather exotic looking woman hadn't moved a muscle. "Perhaps you didn't hear me over those big brute engines. I asked you to raise your trazy-poo, so the main man can pitty-pat us on the ground."
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>She calmly turned her head and said, "In my country, I am called a Princess. I take orders from no one."
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>>To which the flight attendant replied, without missing a beat, "Well, sweet-cheeks, in my country, I'm called a Queen, so I outrank you. "Tray-up, Bitch."

05:06 pm: hi

Wow!  It is always a long time inbetween postings for me.  Guess that will tell all how busy it gets in my life... or how much of my free time I spend on Pogo!!  LOL  School is great this summer.  I have another huge load this fall.  Bigger than last time.  I don't know why i put myself in those situations, but I need the credit hours.  I am trying to transfer to Austin Peay University.  Keep your fingers crossed for me.  Chris wants me to go to Belmont, but it is so darned exspensive.  So I am hanging that up.  Of course he wants me to become a nurse practioner.  joy joy.  Not sure that will ever happen either.

I am going for a girl's night out tonight.  A group of us are going to go walk Broadway and 2nd Avenue tonight.  Hoping to find a nice dance club and shake some stress off.  :o)  Who knows what kind of trouble we will get into.  Chris is going fishing.  It is cool here lately that we each have a hang out.  he does his thing he loves and I get to party.  LOL  At least I have never done drugs!  So it isn't a bad party thing.  Hey, and dancing is good exercise.  HMMM!  I need a lot of that.  The rugrats are crashing at Aunt Deb's tonight.

Hey, Jen!  Are you going to the reunion.  We are going to purchase are tickets in a couple of weeks.  Can't wait to go and see everyone.  It will be nice.  is there any gossip from down there?  Has anyone seen any of our class mates lately?  Just wondering! 

Well, guess I'll go paint my nails and iron my top.  Not too much else to do!  Lots of love to everyone!!!!  Later

04:34 pm: hell on earth

...how else to explain it?  yesterday, my heart stopped beating for a brief little while.  When it will be the same again, ...it will be a while. 

I was preparing chocolate no-bake cookies on the stove.  The mixture was boiling for two minutes before I turned from the stove with it, lost my grip and poured it down the leg of a five year old girl that was here for the day.  I rushed her to the tub, washed her with cold water, and then rushed her to the ER.  But the damage was done.  She has first, second, and third degree burns.  She has got to have sugery to scrape the wounds clean and then skin graphs.  It is soooo bad.  And I did it!  I know I didn't mean to and yes, I know it was an accident.  but this isn't one of those things that I can say, "it wasn't my fault."  it was!  i dropped the pot!!!  that child screamed for over an hour.  they gave her 4 ml of morphine and then loratab.  finally she was zoned out enough to relax.  the poor thing was so zoned out, that she told everyone that I didn't drop it, a bird flew in and hit the pot!!??!!  She was doped!  That was for sure.  But I am crushed.  I can't beleive i was so careless.  I hate it!!!  I hate that she was hurt by me.  YES!  I know!  It was an accident!  Every damn person keeps saying that.  But I still did it!  It was still my fault.  and I am ate up with it.  so keep me in your prayers.

jen, cool hair!  wow!  you weren't kidding, it is shorter than mine!  That is a first.  :)  I pray you have a safe trip and enjoy yourself.  And I pray that God is able to work his miracles through you.  I love you.

02:32 pm: hiya BiAches!

This is my second time doing this. I put a picture of mikaela on the last one and licked update up top instead of down bottom. Lost the whole damn entry. Back button brought up an empty screen. I'm so aggrivated.  All because I was having a good day!

She is such a handful!  She is going to be as big or bigger freak than her mom!  Is that a good thing or a bad thing?  LOL

She is growing up so fast.  It sucks how they get bigger overnight.  One day they are falling asleep on your chest and the next they don't want you messing with them.  She is getting TOO big!  And sassy!  Gotta knock that one outta her!

02:26 pm: Happy Easter! a little late...

 

Mikaela and Austin are about to partake on a fattening easter egg hunt, 2005.

07:40 am: hi
There isn't much going on here. Just enjoying Spring Break. Life is the same old stuff. I don't even have anything to talk about./ School is going fairly well and the kids are doing okay. Other than that, SOS, different day.

Jen, it's good to hear that your place is almost ready for you. i bet you are so happy. when do you get to move in?
Oh, have you heard anything on our class reunion. I have to take Anatomy & Phisology II this summer since I dropped it. I'll have classes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. I'm hoping to work in the trip down. Well, I love ya and I'll catch you later. Lots of love, me

05:29 pm: hi
Things are so much better on this end. Am I doing better in that class? No! I dropped it. Why stress it? If I'm not doing well, there's no reason to continue with it this semester. There is always next semester. No one has a set time for me to graduate. I'll finish when I finish. If it is on time or a year late, who cares? I feel like the whole world has been lifted off of my shoulders. Know what I mean?

Jen, glad to hear that all is going well with your house. That is so awesome, girl! I know you must be excited. And I know exactly what you mean about the girls growing up. Mine is about to be 8 this April. She already knows all about periods, babies, and is asking questions about sex. I'm trying to put off answering all of that one for a little bit longer. Unfortunately, as long as she keeps hearing kids talk about that stuff at school and on the bus, I am going to have to start coughing up the answers. I guess I'd rather her know the truth from me instead of trash talk from elementary and middle schoolers. just sad that they have to learn about this stuff so early. Know what I mean?

We had a girls day out, today. This morning, we sold cookies with her Brownie troop at Wal-Mart. Later, we went to Opry Mills Mall and walked around. It was fun. I bought her some makeup from Claire's and a few other things. On the way home she said, "Mommy, I really really really had fun shopping with you today. Thank you!" I about cried. That was so sweet. I pray she and I get closer and closer. She is behind in school and the work is getting harder and harder. I feel like my yelling at her over school work every night is building a wall between us. It's just so aggrivating when she sits and cries and whines because she things it is too hard and she doesn't want to do it. After a while of putting up with it, I just blow up. I don't mean to, but it happens. I don't want that wall to build. Anyway, I'm rambling..., it was just really nice getting to hang with her today.

Well, I need to close for now. We are taking the kids up to the dollar theater to see "Son of the Mask." Lots of love. I miss you so much.

Love, Juanita

02:20 pm: Hey all

Okay, so I was a little stressed in the last entry.  Well, maybe more than a little.  Ha Ha.  I'm not saying that I'm not still stressed, but I have a better idea of how to manage my time for homework/studies.  It is going to zap my weekends for the next month.  That sucks, but that's also life.  There isn't much I can do about it, if I want to make at least B's.  So I'm over the whining, ...for today, at least.

How's everyone, every where?  It is as cold as a witch's titty in a brass bazeere, here!  We are going to get snow tomorrow and Sunday.  I have a wedding to go to tomorrow.  Guess I can't wear the sleeveless dress I had opted for.  LOL  Ah, well!  Can't go naked, so I'll eventually figure out something.  I'm bored.  I have been briefing my chapter in PSY222 all morning and I had to take a break before my brain fried.  Hmmm!  Well, it is already fried, but that's beside the point.  LOL  Blah! bLAH! BlAh! blaH!  Rambling.  Sorry!

Have you seen the advertisment for Dakota Fanning's new movie, "Hide and Seek"?  I can not wait to see it!  That and Ring 2.  I am a horror lover and shit like that just rocks!  Gothika is still one of my favorites!  i'm not one for jumping in movie theaters, but that one got me a few times!  The Forgotten scared the shit out of me, sound wise, a few times; but the story line sucked.

Oh, hey Rob, have you seen the movie, LADDER 49?  I have a new respect for every fire fighter!  Damn, that movie was awesome.  No, not just because Joquin Phoenix (spelled wrong) is in it (though that is a good plus, since I love him as an actor,) but that movie just ripped a hole in my heart.  You can't help but think of 9/11 and all the fighters/officers that died trying to help other people.  Shit, I'm rambling, again.  Anyway, Best wishes with getting into a department, Rob!  i think if is an awesome and very admirable job.  I'll join you, Jen, in praying for his safety. 

Not that God ever listens to ME!  LOL  I think He turned his backand gave up on me a long time ago.  lol  Gotta love Him, anyway.  Not in the mood to start raving on religion and stuff, soooooo maybe I'll change the subject.  Hell, can't think of anything to talk about!  Hmmm!  How ironic.  The first word I thought of for that sentence was,  hell!!!  My fate is sealed!  lol  (What a horrible joke!)

Guess I have bored everyone long enough.  maybe I should get back to work before my short stroy I'm writing or Taltos calls my name.  I left off in a very good part of that book, and I have been so tempted to pick it back up.  yet, I know that there are 4 chapters of text that are demanding my attenetion for school.  Sucks!  My story has been on hold for a while, too.  That incubus will just have to be blue-balled for a bit longer.  LOL  Later, everyone!

D_I

09:07 pm: for Jen
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

WHAT ABOUT US:
» Who are you?
» Are we friends?
» When and how did we meet?
» How have I affected you?
» What do you think of me?
» What's the fondest memory you have of me?
» How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
» Do you love me?
» Have I ever hurt you?
» Would you hug me?
» Would you kiss me?
» Would you fuck me?
» Are we close?
» Emotionally, what stands out?
» Do you wish I was cooler?
» On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
» Am I loveable?
» How long have you known me?
» Describe me in one word.
» What was your first impression?
» Do you still think that way about me now?
» What do you think my weakness is?
» Do you think I'll get married?
» What about me makes you happy?
» What about me makes you sad?
» What reminds you of me?
» What's something you would change about me?
» How well do you know me?
» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
» Do you think I would kill someone?
» Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

07:12 am: Do you hear that?

Do you hear that?  Nope!  That's because there is nothing to hear!  It's Quiet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  The hoodlums went back to school, today.  YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It is so peaceful.  The few babies I have are asleep, still and everything is calm and tranquil.  What sweet bliss!  LOL

Jen, sorry to hear you have had some bad days.  I get those a lot.  I just want to cry and for no reason.  Of course the Doc put me on Zoloft, but girl you can only shit so much, before you learn your lesson.  LOL  Some stomachs it hurts and some can handle it fine.  Mine couldn't.  Therefore, without the medicine, I just deal.  Sucks!  It helps that Chris has learned me and trys to understand and help.  He knows that it has nothing to do with him, but sometimes I'm just depressed.  It is one of the characteristics of AADD.  (Which I was diagnosed with in early 2004.)  The medicine for that keeps me awake at night.  Guess I get screwed in the ass with every whcih way I turn.

Wanna hear another bummer?  I started back to college being behind in Algebra.  I had forgotten so much in the past 9 years, that I had to take 2 high school courses (at college) before I can enter the nursing program.  Little did I know that being a year behind in math has put me a year behind in graduating!  No damn kidding!  I had no idea!  So two days ago, I find out (after I've been in college for a year!)  So to keep from wasting a year on B S subjects, I have changed my major to 4 year, RN.  I'll have a Bachelor's degree in Nursing and a minor (Associate's degree) in Spanish.  I should be a Tennessee State University student by Spring!  It was a bummer at first, but I have warmed up to the idea and am getting a little excited.

Well, that's about all on my end.  I hope things are great out there in this crazy, good for little, world. 

Lots of love, ME

09:08 am:

07:08 pm: sucks to get old

All is okay here, now.  I'm feeling better.  I had an allergic reaction to my dog last night.  It seems that as I get older, my body tends to fall apart.  NOW,... I'm not just allergic to cats.  I'm allergic to all furry animals.  It really sucks.  I love animals and can't have any.  My poor kids are hating it, too.  Princess is going to have to stay an outside dog during the winter, too.  They feel it is so cruel.  I do to, but there isn't anything I can do about it.  Last night, my esophagus swelled so much that my trachea was almost blocked. The Doc freaked out today and immediately injected me with steroids to bring down the size of my throat.  She made me promise to rush to the ER if it goes back up.  I'm on antibiotics for the infection that set in, steroids for the next 4 days to fight any reoccurring swelling, allegra for the allergy, and ordered to keep the dog out of the house.  If I pet her, I have to immediately wash my hands.  It just seems so unfair.

Enough of my whining!  I'm not in the mood, I guess.  So I'm closing tonight.  I have to go watch Wicker Park.  Whooo!  Josh Hartnett could take my mind off of my troubles any day!  OHHH!  And speaking of goodlooking men,... have you all seen Princes Diaries II?  OMG, Chris Pine, the guy that is being pushed to steal the throne, could be another Louis for Interview With the Vamp!  He has that look of Louis, so perfect.  Bright blue eyes, long chin, soft complection, and the appeal to make you want to beg him to bite you.  Whew!  AND WE MIGHT AS WELL KEEP ON GOING!!  Who can take their eyes off of Matthew McConaughey?  DAMN!!  There are many more, too, but I'll shut up rambling and dripping.  LMAO  Goodnight.

08:38 am: WooHoo! Christmas stress is over!!!!

How is everyone out there?  Did you all have a great Christmas?  We had a wonderful one.  Well, my day wasn't wonderful (more like tiring), but the Holiday season was.  (I'll explain in a minute.) My children's 3 sets of grandparents made sure they got everything they asked for.  So they are flying as high as a kite, right now.  Austin got his Power Wheel jeep, flashlight, legos, nerf bazooka (which hurts like a MF when he shoots you with it), "more" hot wheels (he only has a good 500) and a My Video Now.  Mikaela got her bike, Cabbage Patch, My Video Now, Lisa Frank stuff, make-up, and Hello Kitty stuff.  Both got movies, clothes, shoes, pj's, etc.  Anyway, these kids wracked up and they can't complain.  That is for sure!  I really can't either.  Chris and I got our flat Screen computer monitor we wanted, money, Christmas dishes, clothes, and I got some snowmen.  So we all did have a wonderful Christmas.

Christmas day itself was tiring.  We were up late Christmas Eve putting together the jeep, plus my girlfriend was in the hospital from being sick and I was worried about her, and the kids woke up a little after 6 a.m. for Santa.  By lunch time, I was dragging.  I had cooked almost all of Christmas dinner, and the phone rings.  Kathey keeps me on for a while, so my dressing in the oven got a little bit dry.  By the time I got that out, and the rolls in, everyone was here and ready to eat.  I was flying around the kitchen like a mad woman on crack.  Stupid me grabbed a wet towel to pull the rolls out of the 400 degree oven and by the time I got to the counter top with them, I was throwing the pan forward.  My freaking rolls landed in the dish water.  (Quit laughing!  It isn't funny!!!   HEE HEE HEE!  Okay, it's funny!)  My burning hand didn't think so, though!  We finally got to eat and cleaned up a little.  I was just getting ready to plop my fat, dragging ass down on the couch when we heard a crash in our Parlor (antique room for those of you that have been here.)  To my horror,  "MY" Christmas tree with all my glass snowmen (hanging on the front-viewable-side only) came crashing to the floor.  See, I collect snowbuddies.  I have so many of the ornaments that I put up two trees every year.  The kids have their own in the den, with all their mixed up ornaments, multicolors, and fun stuff.  I put up my white tree by the stairs, with white and blue lights and all of my snow buddies and other snowmen ornaments.  Then I add my silver decorations and blue and silver balls, and finally tensil/garland.  Well, needless to say, my weak white tree couldn't hack the weight.  With the pile of presents being removed from it and nothing there to help hold the tree up, the legs litterally snapped.  And down came my baby craddle and all!  It sucked.  There was broken glass everywhere.  I was so tired from everything and now i had to put up Christmas.  I couldn't just stand the tree back up and vacuum, the legs were broke.  I litterally had to pack away everything.  Then, being that Chris had gone out to the building and brought in my empty Christmas storage crates, I had to go ahead and take down the kids' tree, too, in order to fill up the crates and get them back outside.  Otherwise, our guests would have been stepping over them, too.  All that took almost 3 hours.  Becasue it was dark by this point and the roads were still covered with ice from the ice storm that hit last Wednesday night, I didn't get to go to the hosiptal and check on my girlfriend.  (The poor lady got stuck having a small surgery on Christmas!)  I was bummed about that.  We were all supposed to gather around the tube to watch the Titans game, as a family!  Oh, boy!  Wasn't that just a wonderful ending.  Out team sucks this year!!!!!!!!  I fell asleep about 5 minutes into the third quarter.  I was soo pooped and they sure weren't making me excited enough to stay awake and watch them.  SO..........., that was my wonderful Christmas day.  LOL

I really shouldn't complain though.  I was blessed this year.  We had family around, lots of laughter despite the rough moments, and the kids were just thrilled to death.  We could have been the ones on the other side of the county that lost power from the ice breaking trees and knocking down lines, no power to cook or use their heaters and some homes catching on fire from having to use kerosene heaters.  This was a bad year form many up here.  So I was really blessed and I'm grateful.  And not to mention the horror that happened the day after Christmas overseas.  It is horrifying to think of so many people being killed from a natural occurance.  As of today, the count is up to over 33,000 people dead.  So so sad.  Anyway, we had a WONDERFUL Christmas.  And I thank God.

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So, nxd_fairy,... you got to go see Phantom of the Opera.  That is cool.  I don't know when I'll get to go see it.  Probably won't be until it comes out on video.  I don't even have time to read anymore.  I have been reading the book Taltos for almost a month.  It is good, but I just have so little time for myself.  Have you read any good books lately?  I don't know what I'm going to do when this book ends.  I have been reading the Mayfair stories since May.  A page here, a page there.  Sucks that it is going to end.  And by the way, why the hell can't I have my own Taltos?  Before he is born, of course.  LOL  I want him in the form of the Mayfair's Lasher.  LOL  Damn what sweet bliss.  LMAO 

Ah, well!  We can't always have ALL of the fun.  Can we?  LOL  I have pratically written a book.  Guess i need to close.  Maybe I will write more later.  Lots of love to you all.

Love,

The freak!

07:10 pm: Hello, Hello, Hello
This is my first entry. I hope it works. Thanks, Jen, for all the help. Okay, what's up on my end? STRESS!!!!

We have started finals at school! Yeah! Just a few more days next week, and I'm out for a month! WoooHooo! BUT it sure is stressful cramming for all these finals. Chris is sick with the flu, too! So things at home are chaotic and I can't really stick him with watching the kids while I study. Bummer!

The kids are doing well. Mikaela has a Carolling event with Girl Scouts tomorrow night. That's sure to be a blast. Austin is wild as ever. He comes home from school every day telling me how his girlfriend chased him all over the play ground and gave him kisses. He is a mess. It is amazing just how fast they grow up.

After next Thursday, I'll be able to write in this more often. Until then, please bear with me. Thank you again, Jen, for the help with this. Couldn't quite navigate the site.

Lots of love,
Juanita